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Post by edwardcullen on May 29, 2011 17:09:48 GMT -5
It was another day at home for him. Well, not really. He was alone at the moment as he sat in his and Bella's bed room. He sat on the edge of the bed. He's not really been very socialable to the other Cullens after what happened with him and Bree. He was hating himself at the moment. He did finally go hunting though. But he hated thinking about what happened between him and Bree. He just flat out told some one else he loved them....But that was only because he was trying to stop a friend from killing themselves.
How was he gonna tell this all to his wife? She would know by now that his car was destroyed. And that he was just not in the best stable mood at the moment because of that. But still the thought of his lips all over another girl made him slightly feel like he had cheated on his wife. He waited all day for Bella to come home. And when he got Nessie tucked in for the night he walked in here and took a shower. All the time he was in the shower he couldn't stop thinking about what kind of husband he was to his wife. He really hurt her and she doesn't even know that yet.
It was a dark night as he stood there in his shower and waited for his wife to return home. He leaned his head in the water as he let it rain down all over him. His eyes closed in the process. He turned around and placed his hands on the white tile in front of him as he opened his eyes and saw his wedding ring. That was when he lowered his head and let the water rush down on his hair and the rest of him. He was so sick of himself at this point that he wanted to just disappear again. He wanted to leave. But he knew he couldn't do no such thing. Bella would go out of her way to find him again.
She's found him countless times in the forest. So he could not run away as he wished he could right now. He wanted so much to run away. But he knew he would hurt his family if he did such a thing. After a while of just standing in the shower he got out again and got dressed as he walked in to the living room. And he walked towards the kitchen as he pulled out a bottle of blood in the fridge...He could hear his daughter sleeping soundly in her bed room as he sighed heavily and walked back in the living room. As he sat on the couch he sat there for a second and before he knew it he was half way throgh with the wine bottle that was full of animal blood.
He sat in all darkness no lights were on in the house. He didn't even need the lights at times. He waited for Bella to return. And that was when he saw the lights pull up in the drive way. He knew it was her the moment she pulled up. He remained there in his seat in the dark. He rubbed his hand on his face as he sighed out slighlty. He was a bundle of nerves. He couldn't believe what he was about to tell his wife...The love of his life. That he has in fact chested on her. He was tense and scared that she would just flip and get mad at him. Which he knew she would flip...He was not in the best of mood either. But he tried to keep his cool about this situation. He was not going to egg her on. If he could help it. He was doing the right thing right? He couldn't lie to Bella. He's never lied to her before.
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[x]Tag::Bella
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Post by bella on May 29, 2011 17:48:57 GMT -5
Bella wasn't the most fashion forward person in the world, but after living so long with Alice and Rosalie, she was beginning to pick up a few things. Her outfit that day was actually cute, and she had taken a trip to the mall for a little shopping trip. Nessie needed a few new clothes, and Bella was itching to check out the new bookstore they had just opened. But a couple of hours turned into a day trip before she even realized it. Soon it was dark already and the clock said it was past Nessie's bedtime. Great, she wasn't there to tuck her own child in. What bad parenting skills she had.
It wasn't like Bella had originally wanted a child, but having Nessie in her life had only made everything a hundred times better. She was happy with her little family. It was more than she could ever ask for. Bella was truly blessed to have this much going for her. She didn't plan on ever giving any of it up.
Leaving the mall, Bella drove quickly back home, holding onto the hope that Nessie may be still up giving her father a little trouble. THe child really didn't like to go to bed some nights. It was understandable though. The girl didn't like to miss anything, and in a house of vampires that never slept, there was always something going on. But when Nessie was in bed was Edward and her special alone time. Time they would spend in each other's arms and be happy just to be together.
But arriving at the house, Bella saw that all the lights were out. That was a little odd to say the least. There was always someone home and Nessie should be in bed. SHe thought briefly about calling Edward to ask where he was but thought against it, deciding to see if he was home first before worrying about everyone. So she pulled her car into the garage and parked next to the empty spot where the Volvo went. Okay, his car wasn't there, that was odd. She hadn't heard about the car being wrecked yet, so her mind thought he was just gone, or lent his car out.
Stepping out of the vehicle and into the door leading into the kitchen, Bella caught Edward's scent right off. He was here, either he still was or just left mere moments before. She kind of hoped he was still there. SHe missed him, missed the feeling of his arms around her. But before she could go looking for him, her phone went off. "Dad?" She answered, confused as to why Charlie was calling her. "No, everyone is fine the last i checked, why?" She spoke softly before listening to him tell her about them finding Edward's car wrecked. "Alright, thank you. I will let you know if I find anything out." SHe said before hanging up.
Okay now she was worried. What if Nessie had been in the car when it was crashed. Frantic mother mode kicked in as she started hoping that her family was safe. "Edward? Nessie? Is anyone here?" she called out scared that something may have happened. "Please be alright." she muttered mostly to herself as she left the kitchen heading into the living room. she almost didn't see Edward at first but when her eyes met his, she felt herself let out a sigh of relief. "Edward, what happened? Charlie said they found your car wrecked. Is Nessie alright?" She asked moving closer to him but leaving some space in case he needed the breathing room. Outfit: www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=31989269 |
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Post by edwardcullen on May 30, 2011 20:10:15 GMT -5
"Edward? Nessie? Is anyone here?" "Please be alright." "Edward, what happened? Charlie said they found your car wrecked. Is Nessie alright?" He remained in the dark as he heard his wife talk to herself and then she found him sitting on the living room couch where he had been the last few hours at least. He didn't move any thing but his eyes as he looked up in her own. She was worried about her daughter. If she was alright. That was good at least her motherly instincts were breaking out of her. But, her daughter was fine and asleep by now. Edward and their daughter were both fine. Well, Nessie was any way. Bella would at once see the tension in his eyes as he looked up in hers. "Nessie's fine my love...She's asleep...." His voice was different than what Bella was used to. It was as though he could not even talk to her. That was when he placed the half empty bottle of blood on the coffee table and got up and walked away from her as he walked over to a window and looked out. He placed his hands on his lips at that moment as he lowered his head and sighed out heavily....
Bella would most likely tell right off the bat that there was some thing bothering him. He was not trying to hide that either. There was some thing wrong. He was just scared to tell her what that was. He betrayed her in the worst way. His car was the least of his worries at this moment. As he never lifted his head up. He was that much full of shame that he could not even look his wife in the eyes. He knew at once she would want to rip Bree's head off. But he didn't want that to happen to a family member. He still loved Bree. But in a different way. Not like how Bree loved him any way. He just hoped he made that plain and clear to the girl that there was no one else but Bella that could fill that gap in his heart. He knew Bella's reaction would be frantic at starters. But seriously she had nothing to worry about. Edward remained silent then and would let her ask what was wrong.
She would any way. He knew she always asked him right off the bat if there was some thing wrong or bothering him. This was suppose to be their alone time. But it was not that romantic tonight. Edward could feel that she would be angry at first. But it was not like he was going to hide any thing from her. He didn't feel he deserved her touch right now. Which was one reason he moved away from her in the first place. The pain in his eyes were clear to him that there were things he could not undo. He would undo it all in a heart beat if he could go back in time and stop it from happening. But it was not going to happen. He could stop and stare at Bella for the longest time they had alone time. But right now he could not even look in her eyes...He was so upset that he felt his body tense all by itself...He was merely trying to stop some one from killing them selves...What else was he suppose to do? He really wanted to cry right now even though no tears would ever escape his eyes....As he placed his hand over his eyes as he hugged his waist with his other hand and kept his head lowered....His heart was truly though bleeding for this....He was such a wreck that there was nothing that could make him feel better....
[x]Word Count::665
[x]Tag::Bella Cullen
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[x]Notes::None^^
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Post by bella on Jun 5, 2011 23:14:17 GMT -5
Bella took a nervous step forward. Nessie was alright? "Was she in the car?" sHe asked hoping that their daughter wasn't in the vehicle. SHe would expect more careful driving from anyone transporting her child. And everyone knew that if they dove Nessie and she got hurt in the car that they had hell to pay from Bella. She may not have wanted kids originally, but she was one hell of a mother and was really protective over her only child. Sure she had seemed a bit off recently but she was trying to shake it all off, and this was kicking her instincts into high drive. And her instincts were telling her something was seriously wrong. "Edward, say something to me. What happened today?" She said getting a little more frantic and unnerved. He wasn't answering her questions fast enough for her. She was about five seconds from running up to her daughter's room and making sure she was one hundred percent perfectly fine.
But then something changed. She watched her husband set down his bottle and rise to his feet only to walk away from her and too a window. Something was seriously wrong, and she didn't like it. "Edward, what happened?" sHe asked, getting more nervous. She was thinking the worse. Nessie had been in the car, she was alive but hurt, or Jake was killed driving the car. Her hand gripped at her stomach. It would kill nessie if she lost Jake. Bella knew what it was like to lose the person you loved. SHe had lost Edward once and she would be damned if she lost him again. Nothing was going to take him from her. They were both immortal now, but their child was only half vampire, and therefore half human and still susceptible to human emotions more sensitive than their own.
Without a thought, Bella sped to be at her husband's side. Her hand moved to rest on his lower back as she stared into his face. When she spoke next time, her voice was more calming and soothing, trying to help ease whatever pain he was feeling. It was apparent something was eating at him and she wanted to know what it was. "Edward. What is it. Let me know so I can help." sHe offered this time.It was a different tactic, and maybe it would work. sHe was getting too worried for anyone's good. |
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Post by edwardcullen on Jun 5, 2011 23:50:30 GMT -5
"Was she in the car?" "Edward, say something to me. What happened today?" "Edward, what happened?" "Edward. What is it. Let me know so I can help."
He felt her place her hand on his lower back just then as she asked him what had really happened today. He still couldn't really answer her right off the bat. As he kept his face covered with his hand and he shook his head slightly...His body was slightly trembling. He couldn't believe he was about to tell her that he had cheated on her. He was that terrified of saying a word that if he did his words would stumble through. "Bella...My love for you is endless. I hope you know that...." There he was breaking as he started to explain to her what happened that day...Yes she was correct....His car was wrecked....But no one was injured. The only injury that occurred that day was his feelings that were shattered.....All because of one kiss....One kiss that could end their love on a spin of a dime...That's what he was so scared of......Loosing her...He moved away from her only inches away as he sat on the window sill with his back facing the window....
"....Some thing did happen. That I think you should know about. Some thing was apparently my fault. " He removed his hand from his face just then and looked up at her....With his golden brown eyes...He was not sure how to tell her that the kiss happened...He just had a worried expression all over his face...She would see the tension building up in his muscles.... "I feel like I have betrayed you beyond all repair....What happened...Was, Bree and I....kissed...She kissed me first taking me off guard...And she left....Then she was so full of regret she had,she thought that killing herself would make it better....I...I acted out the only way possible to make her stay alive....And....kissed her back...." He sighed heavily and moved away from the window in a flash as he grabbed the wine bottle from the coffee table and downed the rest of the blood as he placed it on top of the fire place mantle when he was finished and he grasped the edge of the mantle tightly as he tried not to get any anger out...But he was angry at himself for hurting the only one he has ever loved!
He still couldn't believe what he just said to his wife....The only one for his heart to hold. He was so consumed with anger and confusion that Bella would flat out tell him that it was over right then and there....He was so terrified that there was no going back on what he just told her...And what he told her was the entire truth....There was no emotional feeling behind that kiss he gave Bree. He just wanted the girl to stay alive...He was lost and confused that moment in time and had not eaten that day at all. He just sighed heavily as he lowered his head and looked in to the fire place at the burnt up pieces of ash and wood....His heart was breaking so much he remembered what had taken place on their honey moon...Had he thrown their whole marriage in the ditch? Please don't sat she would leave him...He wouldn't know if he could handle that. He was already stressed out and angry...He was trying his best though to keep his temper at a minim...He knew Bella hated it when he got angry...And that was not going to solve any thing... "Please....Say some thing....Your silence is killing me...." He said as he shut his eyes tightly....Not even looking at her...
[x]Word Count::684
[x]Tag::Bella Cullen
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[x]Notes::None^^
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Post by bella on Jun 6, 2011 1:14:43 GMT -5
Okay, this wasn't helping situations. He was dragging out telling her and it made her anxiety that much worse. Could it be that bad? She couldn't help but hope that everything was alright. "Edward, you are starting to scare me." sHe spoke inching closer to him, her hands balled up grasping at her shirt hoping to god that everything was alright. He moved away from her, making her feel even worse. What was going on? Something was seriously wrong here and she didn't like this.
That was when words began spilling out of his mouth. When he first said he and Bree had kissed, her world started to tip. The rest of the explanation was lost as his words blurred together. Her throat suddenly felt tight and her chest felt like someone was ripping it apart. His moving further away made the feeling even worse. Her hands balled up tightly against her stomach as she leaned against the glass window pane and slid down until she was sitting on the floor, a look of utter shock on her face. sHe was trying to process it all. What did it all mean anyways?
She stayed lost in thought for a few moments until his voice broke through the cloud. Bella looked up from the spot on the floor her eyes had become trained on and looked up to where he stood over the fireplace. He was so close to the very thing that could kill him, and she had every urge to pull him away, but stayed where she was. She wanted to shed a tear, something to get this pain out of her system. But all she could do was stare at him.
"What should I say?" She asked softly finally. the vampire female rose to her feet and turned to look out the window. Rain softly pelted the glass as it made the silence even harder. "What does this mean for us? Our family? Am I supposed to just act like it never happened?" SHe turned and faced him, her hands in fists, her teeth biting down on her lower lip. She really wasn't angry. She was scared. Scared her family was falling apart. "What do you want me to do Edward?" sHe asked, raising her voice ever so much. She felt so lost and confused. How could he do this, make her feel like this. And what about Nessie? What were they supposed to tell their small daughter? This couldn't be happening. |
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Post by edwardcullen on Jun 6, 2011 2:28:14 GMT -5
"Edward, you are starting to scare me." "What should I say?" "What does this mean for us? Our family? Am I supposed to just act like it never happened?" "What do you want me to do Edward?" He remained where he was with his eyes shut tightly...As she spoke finally it was like his heart was shattered in a million pieces. He was so hurt right now that there was no way he would be able to cope with the way she was acting with him. But he knew this was going to happen sooner than later. He wasn't going to flat out and lie to her. He had to tell her the truth and that was what he just did...and now she threw out her anger as well...She had to ask what would happen with their family...What would happen to them all....? He for once had no answer for that question. He knew what he wanted to tell her he just couldn't get the words out just yet. He was so terrified she was going to flat out say it was all over.....Was this a test? Was he actually feeling the bond he had with her breaking? All because of one kiss to another girl? He was so angry at himself that he was not only scared of her but himself...As he let go of the mantle and felt the warm fire that burned and crackled below him.
He knew he had to get the strength to handle the pressure. But right now it was like his body would shatter if she so much as said another word that would hurt him. He wanted to run over and kiss her and tell her that there was not a thing could break their family apart. He knew she was angry at mostly Bree not him...But he could hint that she was slightly mad at him for a few slight moments that that was when he dashed over to the front door and opened it up and ran out...He was not going to let their daughter wake up and hear her parents arguing....He just wanted to get out of that house as well as he ran a bit away from the house...To the point that the rain pouring on his face was like God crying for him when he fell on his knees on the muddy ground...and let his fist slap in the mud! He was that pissed at himself for letting this happen to his family...He was far from perfect and he knew Bella knew that...
He wanted to hurt himself for hurting his wife...He felt that bad...He told her everything and yet he still felt like crap...What was he suppose to do to make things right again? He was a vampire...He was the one that damned her life and here she was married to him...He hurt her so much that he could not compare to the pain that he just placed her in again....He wanted to run away again...He wanted to leave her again...But his heart was telling him no...Don't leave her...She would forgive him...He had to believe that...but as he sat there in the mud he wept silently there...He's hurt her more than once and this was enough....He then heard the door or the cottage open and close as he never looked back and felt her presence in the back of him...He could not even turn around to look her in the eyes....There was no words that he could say to make it all better again...He just lowered his head in shame...As his body tensed up and started to slightly shake....He looked down at his ring...He had really betrayed her this time.....
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[x]Tag::Bella Cullen
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[x]Notes::Hope it's okay that she walks out and joins him^^ I know she will XD |
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Post by bella on Jun 6, 2011 2:42:17 GMT -5
Once all her frustrating questions were out, Bella stood up, staring at her husband as her chest heaved up and down as she breathed, trying to get calmer. But then he up and ran out the door. What was his problem? Bella was so confused. Did that mean it was over? Was their family falling apart? Was she not a good enough wife? She hated to think that it was all her fault. Maybe she should have kept her whole parent problem to herself. It wasn't fair to him for her to burden him with her every problem. He could only handle so much. So maybe it was all her fault.
Bella sighed loudly in frustration before rushing out the door after her husband. She watched him stop and sink to the ground. He looked so pained. Bella stopped running and started walking closer to him, stopping a few feet away. "You're still my husband Edward. Answer me. Where does this leave us? Are we done? Or is there some way we can save this?" She asked hopping that their marraige could in fact be saved. She didn't want to lose him, and have Nessie grow up in a broken home. Besides, if she didn't have Edward, where did that leave her. SHe couldn't live with Charlie or Renee, and Nessie was better off in a stable home with the Cullens. Would she become a nomad? No, she had to have hope. Hope that they could fix this and move on with their lives. |
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Post by edwardcullen on Jun 6, 2011 3:05:43 GMT -5
"You're still my husband Edward. Answer me. Where does this leave us? Are we done? Or is there some way we can save this?" He closed his eyes as she asked that. She wanted an answer....He stood up off the ground and faced her as he looked in her eyes then. "Bella, don't ever think for a second that we could be over. You were like an angel that shown down on me when we first met...There has to be a way to save what is left of us....I have to believe that. And so should you. Don't hate me Bella.....When I married you and gave my vows, I meant every single word I said....And now, here I am....Kicking myself in the ass for what I did to you....I don't expect you to forgive me right off the bat....I know what I did was wrong...."
He placed his thumb on her cheek as he stroke her cheek softly...As the rain ran down his face. It had gotten a bit heavier then....But he was not worried about the weather...That was the last thing on his mind....
He also did not want her to think that she was not a goof enough wife...Because she was. She was the perfect wife...Rather she thought so or not. He tried his best to make her see that she was the perfect wife....He knew all they needed was their love to make it through any thing. She had laid a pretty big stressful thing on him though....The thought of her faking her death just so her parents would think she was dead...Was out of the question....That was some thing he knew now he could not help out with...As much as he wanted...But that stress drove almost to insanity and he was not going down that road again...But at this point that was not the right subject to bring up....He was just trying his best to make her see how much he regretted what he had done to her....He was not expecting forgiveness right off the bat....But if she loved him then there would be nothing to tear them apart....Not even a silly little kiss....
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[x]Tag::Bella Cullen
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Post by bella on Jun 6, 2011 9:37:28 GMT -5
Bella waited for an answer. Her breathing, while unnecessary, was rapid as her emotions hyped up. It almost seemed like the world was going in slow motion as Edward stood up and turned to look at her. She knew she looked a mess at that point. Her hair clung to her body as did her clothes, her white shoes were covered in mud, and her eyeliner and mascara was running down her face, as if she had been crying. She looked about as bad as she felt. She was scared, scared of the worst answer he could give her. She didn't want to expect it, didn't want it to be over. But it was his choice. She knew they could find a way to fix it, but he had to want to make it work too. A relationship took two people to make it work, and it would just fall apart if only one of them was willing to help work out the problems.
Bella listened to him speak, hung on his every word. Her emotions jolted when he said he wanted to try and fix it, and suddenly, she wanted to cry all over again. Not out of sadness, but out of sheer joy. Because he still loved her and he wanted to fix it. His touch on her cheek was like Electricity coursing through her entire body. She tilted her head, loving the feel of him touching her. And out of nowhere, she pulled herself against him, her hands lacing into his hair, as she kissed him. It was sudden and unexpected but full of passion, until she pulled away. "Come away with me." sHe said softly. It was an offer to leave, go somewhere where they could be together, no distractions. They could work their problems out better if there wasn't something getting in the way, like Bree.
Bella didn't hate the girl, but she definitely wasn't her favorite person now. This was her fault, if she hadn't taken advantage of Edward's good heart, this wouldn't have happened. So the only solution Bella seemed to have at the moment was going away for a little while, just so they could fix everything. They would have to take Nessie of course, and if Nessie went they all knew Jake would follow. So it would be like a family vacation. But then the question stood, where would they go? She hadn't a clue, but she would figure it out. All they needed was to have Edward agree to go and they could leave by the end of the week. |
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Post by edwardcullen on Jun 6, 2011 12:43:48 GMT -5
He was so not excepting her to kiss him like she had. But it was most amazing kiss she could ever give him. That was saying a lot. But it was the truth at least to him. And it was a kiss in the rain. What better place to kiss like this? He felt her hand reach up and ruffle through his hair as he reached his arms behind her and placed his hands on her lower back as he continued on kissing her. His eyes at once closed on lip contact. When she pulled away nothing could prepare him for what she said next...."Come away with me." With out hesitation he answered her, "With you Bella, I'd go any where...." He said as he took his thumb and wiped away some of her make up that had been ruined....But he cared less. She was still the most beautiful thing he had ever laid his eyes on....He gave her smile then as he looked deep in her beautiful eyes. He knew she would not leave him now. He made a mistake he knew that. And he was spend the rest of his immortal life making it up to her.
He swallowed a bit as he reached his hand down again and let their fingers intertwine with each others....Their hands fit like a glove. It was so perfect when he held her hand. He squeezed her hand slightly as though he was scared that she was not going to be there and that she was just a vision of his imagination. But wait, he couldn't sleep...Therefore he could not dream. So this had to be real...And it was real as the rain that was falling all around them. "I'm so sorry about it all....I hurt you and I know that I opened that hole in your chest back up....Let me be the one to close it...To heal your broken heart. Bella, as many times as I hurt you, you are still here right in front of me. I love you so much. I love our family so much....Don't leave me....Please. Don't leave me....I couldn't bare the thought of you doing so...." Which was true...All true...He would not be able to handle another separation. He nearly killed him self with the last one....
He then moved closer to her and placed his lips back on her own. And gave her a very passionate but delicate kiss. There was a lot behind that kiss. Bella gave him things that no other woman could really give him. She for one gave him a reason to live. Another she gave him a beautiful daughter and that he would never be able to be too happy for. Again his eyes closed on lip contact as he kissed her and opened his mouth as he let her inside. He could taste her venom intertwine with his own. And it was not such a bad thing. Her kissing had sure gotten a lot better. Though now he did not have to worry about loosing himself when ever he kissed her now like he did when she was human. And yes he was true to his word. He would go any where with Bella. To hell and back if that were the case! He was that much in love with her....It seemed all the stress that he was under was lifted the moment he French kissed her....He was so close to her that he let his hands travel up and down her slender body as he kissed her.....He wanted to cry but now it would only be tears of joy now that he knew she would never ever leave him....
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[x]Tag::Bella Cullen
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